Becky

I haven't gone through and read through everyone's journals yet to update myself. But I just wanted to leave a quick post to say hi to everyone.

School is hard and I cannot wait to get through this semester. Only a few more weeks. And I am soooo far behind schedule in my plans for after graduation. It sucks! I just hope things work out the way they should.

Anyway that's a quick update. Nothin really else besides that. Can't wait to see everyone over Thanksgiving. Bye loves

Well I thought my senior year was going to be easy. I'm only taking four real classes and a three credit independent research class. Looks like my teacher im researching with has other plans, seeing how I may be presenting at two different regional conferences and maybe submitting to two national ones as well. Freakkisshhhhh

I'm living in a three bedroom apartment by myself.. It pretty much sucks, well sometimes. I like that I can sit in the living room and completely take over it to do work or crafts or anything else. However, when I am doing work on a Friday night and I have nobody but a needy cat, it gets pretty lonely. Boyfriend is busy with everything else he has going on back on campus so it's unfortunate.

Speaking of boyfriend, some sisters who are infamous for dysfunctional relationships apparently think he and I need to break up because I haven't been 100% happy with everything between us. In my opinion, I don't tell him what upsets me and I don't let him know if I'm sad or angry. Not anymore... I'm tired and exhausted and I shouldn't have to pretend that I'm in a perfect relationship. I don't want perfect, just us. So hopefully things remain good and he takes the new opinions carefully with no over reactions.. So far so good by the way.

Other than that, nothing is really going on.. oh hah, just kidding. My grandmother passed away August 29th. I was prepared for it. I had been getting updates since that Friday from my mom so I was relieved she is in a better place now. Also, she didn't pass until I was safely back in Baltimore and she was alone to herself when nobody expected it... That's just how my grandmother rolls, always a surprise. Heaven isn't ready for her that is for sure. But it was really nice being home and spending every day from Wednesday through Sunday with my whole entire family, all 10 cousins and their parents. My mom and I got to have some time together too. I just feel so bad for her because she works where my grandmother used to live, in the nursing home. So I can only imagine what it would be like to be there five days a week.

Alright well I have been delaying work for a good four or five hours, haha. Hope everyone's senior year is going well.

So my parents came home on Sunday. I talked to my mom about my on-campus apartment that is $2550 extra per semester and the money is due on July 31st, knowing that we were having money issues I wanted to tell her ASAP so we could figure things out. What resulted from that conversation is me no longer living in that apartment and me now trying to find an apartment 300 miles away from there. This sucks.

Greg said he would live with me (scary thought, I know). But he doesn't really take much initiative in terms of getting things done or doing them right away. So it's like pulling teeth, and I don't really have that much time. My mom wants me to have an apartment lined up by Friday, how the hell do I get that done when I am 300 miles from my school???

Luckily, where Lance lives is gorgeous. So I am pretty sure we will live there. And to make things even better Maria said she will split the rent three ways with us because she is "lviing" on campus in a dorm, even though she lives with Lance, her parents just don't approve of it. With that in the equation everything should be much cheaper.

I'm really hoping all of this works out. I'm freaking out about it all. But my two supposed-to-be roommates took the news really well. I thought one of them was going to get angry, just because she takes things personally. But she was really understanding so that makes this whole ordeal a lot easier. My next task is to talk to the housing director and tell him all of this, hopefully he won't cause me any trouble and it can be as simple as "Hey I'm not living on campus because I can't afford it right now. Give me my money back for the meal plan and housing that I did pay for. Thanks, have a good day" Well I can dream anyway, right?

Alright I have been putting off any real productivity today and I have to leave for work in an hour. Figured I'd give a real-time look into the life that is mine, haha. Byeeee

Well not too much has really gone on over the past couple of weeks. I don't have a life, all I do is work and sleep and eat, maybe go to the gym or tanning if convenient haha.

As for recently, Greg just came up for a few days. Unfortunately the start of his visit wasn't very smooth. He got delayed 4 hours due to weather and so we didn't get home until 3am Thursday night. And then he got sick all day Sunday, throwing up from what we think might have been food poisoning. So we didn't really get to do a whole lot of fun things, but it was still overall pleasant. He left yesterday.

Now I am stuck in this house all by myself since my parents are in Alabama until Sunday. And I don't have to work, so I am literally just sitting around. I have decided to really knock out some of this GRE prep course work since I haven't had a chance to do so in a while.

Not so much has really gone on. Oh and I don't think I've mentioned my crush at work. Haha, I'm a mess. I don't really like him in a way I'd ever break up with Greg for him, plus he's two years younger and goes to school in Pa. But he reminds me of Greg in certain ways and he's just fun to talk to and get to know. It makes an extremely boring job a little more fun when you have distractions of the opposite sex. Haha

Alright yeah that's about it. I think I am going to make some lunch and learn some vocabulary words, haha I am sooooo much fun

I seek forgiveness. I completely neglected this site over the past, I don't even know. I haven't even kept up with my friends' entries. I have tried to catch on every so often but my life just kept getting busier and busier and my internet rarely worked for a long consecutive time.

Anyway, so I just looked and I haven't posted since November. I guess you could say a lot has gone on since then haha. First off, Greg and I are doing wonderful. We have a kitten together and we have entertained the idea of us living together, but chose not to seclude ourselves during our last year. But we are planning on staying together after graduation and trying to find schools in the same city. So that's always good news.

Sorority life is going pretty well. I have been elected Vice President, which is phenomenal. I always thought it was an office that didn't do a whole lot, and then I realized that it was just that nobody had been doing anything. So I have been working hard at trying to get things straightened out and have everybody work together like they are supposed to be doing. This past semester didn't really work out so well, so this summer my plan is to try to get things all planned and all organized and the only thing the girls have to do is just follow directions. Generally a very very difficult task for most of them, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed for some competence as my last semester in office begins. Other than that, things are good with them, just typical day-to-day drama and irritating habits.

School life, there isn't much to complain about. I went to the Psychology conference in Memphis the day after my birthday. It was amazing, I love Memphis. Can't say I learned much about Psychology though, haha but oh well. I got to drink with my professors, in certain aspects, that can be more influential then anything discussed at the symposiums. I have signed up to do research with one of my professors for this past semester and this upcoming one. So this summer also means lots of independent research to figure out what it is that I want to analyze from the huge data set she has given me free reign to determine what I can. I am practically done all my classes, I just have two business ones and my senior sem. That means that my senior year should actually be somewhat fun and relaxing. Minus the fact that I am planning on keeping my job at McAlisters and I am also hoping to get an internship at the High Point Regional Hospital in their Psych ward, we'll see how that goes for me.

Speaking of work, McAlister's loves me haha. I am the only competent worker there and they pretty much begged me to stay because the people there are crazy and the managers didn't want to have to deal with them by themselves. It's a fun environment and it is nice to have respect and recognition from the managers and employees. I sometimes wonder if I should just screw over the whole psych thing and just run a restaurant... haha okay maybe only half think about that.

So summer plans, as most of you all should know, I am home. Working at Unilever again, making tons of money, trying to save it so I can go to graduate school. However, my parents are never around and so I end up paying for all of this stuff. So I am not really sure how much I am saving, but I am doing my best. My parents are nuts by the way. Completely stressing me out beyond belief. I know they don't mean to, but every little pieces of advice they give me usually contradicts what the other parent is saying and while they keep telling me to make my own decisions, whichever decision I make is never good enough or is undermined by the supposed influence from the other parent. AHHHHHHHHHH They kill me. Plus, they hate Greg... Yeah let's talk about that... super fun. He's coming up here Thursday by the way, for a week. And has to spend all day with my mom and dad because I have to work until 11pm. I don't know what is going to happen, but apparently my mom is less than thrilled to have him around.

I GIVE UP lol

Ummm any other news, not really.. I have no time for anything this summer apparently. I wake up, go to the gym, go tanning, eat lunch. Make food for work, shower, go to work until 11pm. Come home and study GRE stuff (or try to atleast) and maybe watch some tv. Go to bed and do it all over again. And the past two weekends I have worked on Saturday as well. And then last Sunday was Father's Day so couldn't do anything then and then this weekend is a family trip to the National Zoo so no free time there either. Oh well, hopefully I will get a chance to hang out with everyone more than once this summer. That's my one wish anyway.

Oh by the way, family... My sister is going to the MICA precollege art program... Weeeirrrddd, I didn't think she was good enough. Guess I just want her to be little still. I have anxiety thinking about helping her move in to college next year and this house being empty all the time. And then I think about how I don't know what I am doing, where I will be, or anything like that which only causes more stress.

The end result..... I just want to go back to high school where all we had to worry about were people stealing our shoes or lunch bags or turning our bookbags into nuggets. Where we had to try and think real hard about nicknames for everyone and always gossiping and telling stories about our favorite teachers... Oh the days, I'm not ready for the future.

Anyway, hopefully I will keep this up again like I was doing soo well before. (I'M SORRY KTO!!!) I'm hoping that I haven't left anything out.


Here's a picture of our baby, he is quite larger now though. He's like three times the size, but just so you all can see my pride and joy. If you ask nicely, or even just mention, I will show you the billions of pictures on my phone. Even Kathleen thought he was cute in the pictures and she doesn't like cats.. haha

I can't believe how fast a month goes.. I hate it. Anyway, so the visit with Gregory in Baltimore went really well. We got to do touristy things and he got to hang out with Caroline and Dan and got to meet my brother and Katy. He seemed to really enjoy it (and Ikea!) and wants to come back up. Maybe I can try to drag him up over the summer or over Christmas when others are home. So we shall see.

School sucks. Too much to do and WAAAAY too little time. But other than that I'm happy and all is well, just over stressed and tired as per usual. But I'm alright with it. Sorority is going well

I miss everybody and am coming home for Thanksgiving that Monday before. Well I have work to do and Gregory is coming over (I am banned from the apartments all week so I barely get to see him, so I'm pretty excited). Oh yeah, Sorority is going well. I am really enjoying being back on the hall and spending lots of time with them all. I've missed them so I definately want to make sure I come over and hang out whenever I get a chance, though it's going to be hard since I have 4 papers due in 3 weeks AHH! Okay okay, work time. Night

Gregory's coming up Wednesday. I'm pretty nervous and really excited. Now means I have a whole lot of cleaning and homework to do before he gets here but I have some things planned so that way it won't be use just meandering around Towson with nothing to do for three whole days. I can't wait.

In other news, cyst removal went fine. Not nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be. Just a local anesthetic and I just looked away the whole time. I haven't even seen my arm with the stitches in it. Doesn't hurt to bad either, which is always a good thing.

Um home has been fine. Got to see Caroline of course and had some fun family moments. Other than that, no real special updates. So, that's everything.

I wish everybody was home so I could actually visit with people. Well actually, Katy Illuminati might be coming up. I'm really excited to get to see her too. Alright gotta shower and start cleanin.

How do I keep reading LJ but never think about posting, then all of a sudden it's been almost a month again? Oh well.

It's Tuesday night, almost 4am, so technically Wednesday morning. This is my third consecutive night of no sleep. Over the past three nights, I've gotten about 2 hours or less each night. It's getting kind of rough but I don't have much of a choice.

Right now, I am trying to write a Macroeconomics paper on the decline of youth and rise of older generations and the effects on the economy. I don't even know where to begin with it. I was hoping it wouldn't take me all night, but I managed to waste about 4 hours doing absolutely nothing and continue to do so now.. my bad.

Pretty much all is well. I can't really complain too much about life. School is challenging and time consuming but I'm not really in any kind of situation where I hate a class I'm in like last year or struggling badly in anything. I just have to make it until Thursday and then I will be home in Baltimore as of 10pm. I can't wait.

So if you are around from the 14th-20th, please contact me. I would love to see you since I didn't get a chance to really see anybody over the summer.

I will try to give an actual update on the specifics of my life, possibly when I'm home with nothing to do but homework.

Well it's been just a bit of a while since I last gave everyone a head's up to my life. Can't really say there is a whole lot going on with me or anything super new. I am obviously at school and enjoying it. I am getting really involved with Phi Mu and trying to keep myself relatively busy when I am outside of class. I am living with Greg, unofficially, though he has given me my own drawer in his dresser. That was a pretty large accopmlishment, I didn't even ask for it.
I do have the habit of crying when I'm drunk about how I don't think he loves me because he never says it, so luckily he hasn't just broken up with me for being an emotional maniac.

I finally have a job. I am working at this quick casual dining place called McAlister's Deli. It's one of those places where you order food then sit down and get it served to you. It seems like it will be a fun place to work at, pays pretty well, really felxible with scheduling. Only problem is is that I work with a bunch of highschoolers, so that is pretty annoying. I shouldn't be so quick to judge, I haven't even had one shift yet, but I had to go to a staff meeting Saturday morning so that sucked.

But yeah, other than that, there really isn't a whole lot going on with me. Just trying to keep up my grades, save up money, and enjoy my year. We'll see how it all goes.

Oh, I will be back in Baltimore from October 13th-October 21st fyi

So I'm going to Italy December 27 through January 7th. Crazy. And I'm going with Greg and two of his friends, Mary and Jameson.

Oh and my mom really doesn't like him right now and is very skeptic of everything we are and that is making me worried.

And I haven't seen anyone really since I've been home and I really wanted to see Kathleen, KTO, Fitz.. It doesn't look like that will happen. Sadness.

Back to West Virginia this Friday for a weekend of drinking. Then when I get back to school, time to try organization, Real job hunting, and packing.

FYI, Greg and I are back together and things are really well. I told him I loved him last night and we had a long discussion about a mistake I made a few weeks ago. I hope this doesn't ruin things, but he said he'll get over it. I mean, he had just told me that he and I were never dating, of course I would be hurt and wasn't going to be a fool and wait around for him to get back in the fall. He apparently expected me to. But I don't want to go into details.

Cara n Kathleen came down. Really fun. I'm too tired to go in depth with anything but I'm glad they got to see me in my other environment.

And now, I have to wait 4 days to see the boy again and then I'm going home for a few days. Mainly to go shopping, but Elias is coming back into town and of course my loves are there so it should be good.

Anyway thats all. Quick update.

I hate Greg. He just has to swoop in down here and all of a sudden he gets all mad when I joked about going back to a guy's apartment. Who is he to get so mad? Then his friend makes it a point to tell me that Greg does like me and I shouldn't give up. Even Anthony said that. He said that Greg just isn't ready to admit he isn't single anymore but he wants to be with me. AHHHH I HATEEEE THISSS. lol bastard, I was so ready to just hangout with him and Anthony and Stevie and Greg's friend this weekend and just have a good time, and now I'm like, great I miss him again and still want to be with him. Why did he have to text me Friday night after I left their presence? Blegh

Oh and he's coming this weekend again. Caroline and Kathleen will be here too. I need you two girls to make sure you don't say anything to him and just let whatever will happen to happen.

I've decided I'm still going to go on with my day-to-day business, but I just hope I didn't make a mistake and ruin what I could have still had with him. Fantastic.

Oh and I got very very little sleep this weekend, yet I'm up at 8:15 with absolutely nothing to really do with my day but wash my sheets, go to the store, could get my nails done, and maybe find a job. Ohh well I guess

Having a puppy is hard work. And she isn't even my dog. But I love her. I may have to move into Anthony/Greg/Stevie's apartment because I don't know if I'll want to not be with her. It's going to be sad.


The news of me being officially single has come out, so now I have a creepy brother who keeps trying to talk to me. That's about all. High Point is boring and I need a job but I'm worried about leaving the dog at night. Oh well, I just need to suck it up and go apply for a job somewhere.

The irony in my last entry is around 11:30 last night I found out that Greg and I apparently were never dating. When I asked him if he wanted to stay with me, the response was "I wasn't aware we had started dating." So, we are still going to be friends and hang out and the silly bastard actually expects cuddle time with yours truely. Yeah we'll see.


I need lots of drinks and some rebound guys. ASAP. Luckily, there are freshman back at school for Summer Advantage and I am leaving this weekend. Just kidding, partially, mostly about the freshies. lol



And ps, for a while, the smile is a mask.

So there is one month left of my summer vacation and I haven't really gotten anything accomplished. I was really hoping to start working out hardcore and get into some shape, you know "wow" the freshmen and Greg haha. But that never happened. I also hoping to get a job and save up some money. Yeah that still has yet to happen. It sucks soo much.

I think I am going back to school this weekend. We never found a surgeon for my cyst that could get me a consultation before Mid-August, so it looks like I will have to search for my own down in North Carolina. I'll have to ask some of the local people if they or their parents know of anybody. I am kind of nervous to go down since I've been gone so long, well it feels like an eternity. Oh well, I'm excited to see the puppy and be in my apartment again.

Things with Greg are really rocky right now. I finally got fed up and texted him since he never mentioned me visiting last Friday and so I was bitter he forgot. I wasn't going to go anyway because I didn't have time but it's the premise of the situation. I then told him I either need to know that he is thinking about me and wants to still be with me or he needs to stop leading me on. He has yet to respond. If I don't get an answer from him this week, he's going to have to deal with a visit from me or even a phone call.

I went on a date Friday night with this guy Paul that I met on the 4th of July. He's a nice guy, 25, CHC alum. But there just wasn't that connection that I wanted to be with him. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm not ready to give up on Greg. That realization is kind of refreshing because atleast I know that I'm not giving up, even though a lot of people are telling me to do that. I really care about him, so we'll see.

Things around home are alright, no real tiffs going on between me or anybody which is good. It's been a nice visit, I just wish I was more prepared to have stayed longer. Luckily a shopping trip eased that desire haha. But yeah, I've seen Caroline pretty much every day since Tuesday night. Her, Kathleen, and I tried this rotating sushi bar in towson the other night, which was a lot of fun and really good food. Then last night Cara and I and Glenn saw Pirates and hung around in Hunt Valley. That was an alright time, she was kind of out of it after a battle with her sister and I was just tired. But still fun times. We'll see what is in store for the rest of the week.

Alright I guess I should get going. I have nothing pressing to do, but I need to do some laundry and take a shower, maybe even lay out some. Hope summer is going well for everyone.

I'm lonely. And sad. And upset. Greg is going away to NYC this weekend with his friends. So not only is it the second time he's going away with his friends instead of seeing me, but he also took off Friday and Monday for work. Yeah. I think I am seeing him next Friday on my way back down here so something tells me it'll be the end of us unless he wants to turn things around and make me feel actually wanted. We'll see. Not looking forward to it.


Anyway, so this great day that I've had is slowly dwindling away to me being upset and lonely that Greg doesn't care. It's times like these that I know we shouldn't be together anymore because I'm not happy, but he could make me happy if he only put in the effort. I hate love.

I have a few words for this weekend: Natalie had a great time with the sisters and everyone Friday night. Saturday involved lunch with Lance and Maria then shopping just the two of us in Winston-Salem. Then grilling out with about 14 other people = lots of beers and great times and getting reacquainted with everyone. Following the end of the food part, came an excursion to Club Inferno with Anthony, Stevie, Natalie, and of course Uttley. That lead to shots, beers, random drunk guy dancing with me, a congo line in the middle of the dance floor which lead to Natalie and I dancing on the bar, then stripper pole dances with Uttley then all 5 of us, then just Natalie and I. The close of the club lead to champagne and beer at the amphitheater which lead to Uttley swimming naked in the waterfall and that gradually brought us to the end of the night at 5am where Uttley and I grilled steaks and made boxed mashed potatoes and drank grape juice. Then I apparently fell asleep in the beginning of the movie we were watching and I woke up with me under my covers, Adam on top and a blanket in the middle of the bed I guess as a safety zone this morning.


Soooo yeah good weekend. Last week of classes, then home for a short time next week. We'll see how this next weekend goes.

Oh yeah the cookout involved lots of discussions about my relationship with Greg in front of his two roommates. Sooo that was nice and awkward, and of course going dancing with them didn't make it any less. lol Oh well, still had a great time and I was reassured that if things don't work out with Greg and me, I am still very much welcome in their apartment so hopefully things will still be good.

Sooooo I have less than a week left of classes, or something close to that. Natalie, Maria, and about 4 other sisters are all coming down this weekend. It's going to be crazzzyyyy. I really hope Natalie embraces everything without judging anybody first hand. I think she could be happy and all it takes is for her to be open-minded. So we'll see how everything goes. I'm still going to drink and what not but hopefully Natalie will be able to enjoy it. I know she doesn't drink or anything but I just want her to still be able to socialize in party scenes because that what most of college is in terms of socializing. But yeah, so we shall see, we shall see.

My classes are going well. Accounting is taking a lot out of me but he said that I am doing well. I have I think like a B average, which is good. I'd like an A but for accounting, I'm happy with the B. I have an A in Management. That class is so easy. So atleast that will help me out, cross my fingers anyway.

Ummm not much going on. Greg and I rarely talk, things are kind of weird. I never know with him. But I don't know, I'm trying not to let it get to me too badly. It's ruined a couple of my weekends and some nights, so I'm trying to let it be.

On a different note, I'm kind of nervous about next month. I still don't have a job and I desperately need one and I don't really know what I am going to do next month. There aren't many people to hang out with that I could see all the time. Soooo that may suck a lot. But oh well. I'm not too nervous about not having a job because my dad said he didn't want me to have one while in class because of how difficult of a time I was having with accounting. So that's a plus, and I have been pretty reasonable with my money too, another good thing. I just need a job and I need people to hang out with. Blegghh

Alright well classes suck. My life is literally accounting. I wake up around 7:30 to start my day and review my notes. Go to class for 2 hours. Come home for a half hour to do any reading for Management and eat lunch. Then sit in Management (usually on aim) and from there I come home, do accounting homework and reading. Type up notes, look at the examples in the book and then usually it's the end of the day by then so I eat dinner and do any more reading that might have to be done. And then talk online to a few favorites and off to bed I go around 12:30. Who ammm IIII? And to make it worse, with all that, I still managed to fail a pop quiz today. This sucks, a lot. It just means I need to really study every night and every morning before class. We have a quiz Monday, I'm scared already.

High Point itself is okay. The campus is a complete disaster. I don't even try to make it to anywhere but where I am. Luckily my two classes are in the same building, which is the one closest to my apartment. So I really dont ever leave this end. I don't see many people besides the brothers, Lance and puppy. I rarely see my roommate Emily. We both sit in our rooms at opposite ends of the apartment. Or she's at work or I'm doing work. Oh well, atleast we aren't getting on each other's nerves.

But yeah soo that's all I got. Maria is coming this weekend. I'm pretty excited. However it's going to suck to have her here and still no Greg. It's usually the four of us together, but oh well. I guess I just need to get over it.

By the way, weekend with Greg.. weird. I don't know with him sometimes. But it hurts so much to say bye everytime, I feel like he has to feel it too. I guess I can only hope. I've decided if I see him on my way back down here in July after my doc appointments, we will have the "talk" about if he sees something with us. That way I can atleast start to get over him without having to see him every day like I will in the fall. Not only is he living on the third floor of the apartments, but I have a couple classes with him. So yeah, definately need to see what is going on.

I guess that is all. Nothing interesting. Hope everyone is having a great summer.

Alright so my life over the past almost 3 months. CHAOS (the end).

For real though, insanity. I just was completely overworked. Hardest semester. And my grades don't even come close to showing how much effort I really put forth, which is super frustrating. I came out with another C- in Research Methods, which now leaves me in suspense as to whether or not I will have to retake one or both, and that is based on what kind of career/grad program I am looking into. And so that means that all summer I have to actually think about my future and really begin to research what I am interested in. (NOT FUN, much panicking). So that in a nut shell was the rest of my academic life since spring break. I spent from 10pm-4 or 6am in this 24 hour computer lab that had wireless, well actually I usually sat up in the empty classrooms on the second floor with Greg doing research and writing papers. That part was actually not bad, spending all that time with Greg. Anyway more on him later. I'm taking 2 classes this summer so hopefully I can ace those and up my GPA a bit more. Also, my senior year will pretty much be filler classes so again, more opportunities to bring that up a bit.

Okay so social life. Sorority and Maria were put on hold. I barely saw them my last month at school. I didn't live in my room, I had a bag of clothes in Greg's. I showered over there. I saw Maria in class, in meetings, and maybe an hour or so a day. The sorority I saw even less. It was hard, but I really needed to sit down and focus, and while I did, nothing came of it. So that's encouraging. Our sorority spring formal did not go as happily as I would have hoped. Greg was an ass and said some things during a power hour that upset me, about how if he had cheated on me it wouldn't really be considered cheating. Plus I found out that I was his 12th person he slept with, when we first met he said only 5. He apparently went on a fuck spree when he first started the year. But anyway moving on from that.

I guess to the boy officially. He eventually talked to me about White Rose and said that he just assumed I was going with him. Why he would assume that, I don't know but oh well. Three days before we went away, he did two power hours in a row with Anthony, Stevie's girlfriend, and this freshman Rachel. Stevie, Maria, Lance, and I were all wondering where he was by the end of the night. We all walk over there, he's passed out on the couch in the living room and says that there is some girl in his bed but he didnt sleep with her and thats why hes there. So anyway I end up sleeping in Anthony's bed, while Greg is in the next room on the couch (we both wouldn't have fit). I then wake up to the girl in Greg's bed saying to Christina how she hopes she's still a virgin. They then go into details about the night and I hear about the photographic evidence of her and Greg making out. So I write him a note saying that he needs to make a decision about us and to call me later. He gets online after I storm out and we talk about it, he doesn't remember, he appologizes, he says he does want to be with me, and I forgive him relunctantly. He makes up for it at the beach. Amazing weekend.. He walked with me on the beach, held my hand, really gave me attention, and was just amazing. We get back to school and that is when I pretty much moved in with him. We even lived in the apartment for a week together. He had meetings and so I'd play housewife and clean and such while the boys were gone and then he'd come home and we'd spend some time together, and lay down. It was so pleasant and cute. But yeah then we left to go home and things were fine and are still fine. I just can't wait until I'm not just sitting at home talking to him while he's at work and waiting for him to get off work, because I have nothing else to do. I get to see him this weekend on my way down to school so that's exciting too. Other than that, thats all with us.

As for Baltimore.. I love it here. It's a great retreat, but it isn't home. I'm moving to North Carolina probably by next summer or atleast I'll be going to grad school down there and such. And then working and everything. So yeah, it's hard to realize that when I don't see people when I come home, I may never really again until reunions or something. I like coming home to get away from things, but 3 weeks is all I could probably handle. If it wasn't for the 5 days my parents were gone, I may have been able to see others too but oh well. And it's interesting to hear my mom say that it's what a parent can hope for. That their children find their own home that they can be happy in and that their parents' home is still a place to retreat to every so often but not a hideaway, you know?

My mom and dad are really treating me like an adult and it's weird to see what things they talk about with me now and how they address important matters. It's no longer hiding or keeping things from me. It's nice, though overwhelming sometimes.

Natalie's really grown too. I had a heart to heart with her Saturday afternoon and she may be coming back to High Point. I really hope so. After what we talked about and hearing how much she's changed, I would love to have her back at school with me. She can meet more people and enjoy things maybe more with me there then if she were to start another school by herself. So we'll see how that works out but she might be visiting over the summer which I hope.

Everyone else from Baltimore (no I haven't forgotten) are all doing just well. Chris, Caroline, Matt, Russ, Elias, Glenn.. the whole 9 yards, everyone is great. I missed Megan and Fitz and Katy this trip home, but who knows, perhaps another visit over the summer home will be necessary.

Anyway I should get going, off to lunch with Eli. I will talk to everyone later, have a great summer. COME VISIT ME IN HIGH POIINNTT.. lol.